Well, it’s been a while since my last post, which looked like it could be the last, though I was still a little inconclusive about it.
Chatting with my good friend Rob, I realized that actually I do have a lot of say which could be of benefit to the world, things that people do need to hear. Whether they listen or not is up to them, and in a way is none of my business.
It suddenly became very apparent that I had been having one rule for myself and one for everyone else. I would never dare to say that someone shouldn’t speak unless they embody their words 100%, yet that was exactly what I was expecting of myself. Perfectionism is one of my most prominent flaws, and it has sapped my energy and my sense of fun and playful laughter more times than I can count. And the unflattering by-product of perfectionism? Control-freakism, and nothing turns someone into an unfeeling rigid funless creature than trying to be in control of everything with a vice-like grip, especially things that are meant to flow, like movements and emotions and thoughts, and even belief systems.
So, Rob and I figured it is time I started up journalling my journey again, for that’s really what this blog has always been about. I speak some wise words that sometimes I live up to and sometimes I don’t, but I no longer doubt that they can serve a purpose for anyone reading them, if they are so inclined to take something from them.
Don’t be too surprised if my style does change a bit, but I’ll let it unfold as it will, and whatever happens, it’ll be exactly as it needs to be.