Secondly: Again, you’re welcome. In truth there are so many different exercises or practices out there, and I think it’s simply a case of learning a few and seeing what works for you. I myself think I’ve been studying this stuff long enough that I’ve got a collection that I work with often (call it my spiritual toolbox if you will), though I hope I’ll never stop learning new ones. Haha, the old ego problem? I’ve been suffering with similar things too, and I guess it’s only really when things are threatened that they resist, so stay with it Moose. The big learning point for me recently is that I got into difficulties from identifying too strongly with it (that is, the stream of inner monologue that goes on and on thinking and judging and criticizing). I made the mistake of believing that it was all of me, or at least the most important part (read that as trying to make the voice say only positive and useful things), when in actual fact it seems that the less attention I give to it, the more peaceful I feel - hence my spouting on about coming back to my senses, experiencing the moment rather than simply thinking about it. I wonder if actually there’s no need to change negative to positive, only to let go of negative and let the capsized ship right itself.

Thirdly: I hope you enjoy some of the back-reading of the blog in that case. Though it probably shows my own journey, and there’s a load of contradictory advice, it only takes one article to have been useful for the whole thing to have been useful - like harvesting from the countryside: take what you need and leave the rest.

Thanks for your encouragement, that’s two comments to keep it going now: my attention-seeking plan is working! Hahahahhaa.

Seriously though, it makes a difference, and certainly with new information comes the possibility of choosing differently, so, maybe rather than giving it up completely, a new style is in order. I’ll plant the seed and see what grows. And it seems you know well, writing this stuff and putting it out there does add pressure to be more accountable, which often helps with growth - get that fear of losing face working for you.

Firstly thanks for the encouragement on the new blog, that was an unexpected way to log on for the day (cyborg that I have become).

Secondly thanks for the post below about mental pictures, I am struggling greatly (repeats *must not struggle, go with the flow* *must not…*) with self sabotaging thoughts and images lately. I almost feel like its as if my ego knows I’m about to f*#k it off altogether and fly and is trying its damndest to stuff that up before it eventuates.

Thirdly, thanks for the blog, which I ‘ve only just now noticed, so don’t quit yet!

Actually, scratch that. Do what you want and forget what others may want from you. I know that keeping a blog, especially a personal development blog, can become a pain in the arse after a while. Makes it hard to be a screw up.

Thank you for your positive words, becca, I don’t know about other writers and speakers and artists in general, but it makes all the difference to me to be acknowledged as having done something worth while, something which makes a positive difference.

I have in fact renewed the webspace, Q&V will continue as before, but I’m still not quite sure about this site here. Time will tell.

i like your blog, and whether you decided to keep it on its own page (whcih as you have your comic strip hosted here seems sensible) or whether you go somewere free (opera is good ) i hope youfind away to share your thoughts with us all

love and peace
becca